the truth is that i can come off as cruel or unforgiving or nitpicky or annoying or pretend but in all honesty, i am filled to the brim with too many emotions and i am working on myself.  i am not easy to be around all the time and i am not always easy to maintain contact with, i know this about myself.  as nikki giovanni said, ‘i am not an easy woman to want’ and i resonate with that so clearly it breaks me apart.  but i am honest and trying to live and make an okay world for all people.